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Really great website- check it.

Pudding Gold!

Last night Justin and I went grocery shopping and naturally went to the pudding aisle to buy our pudding. To our surprise there was a new 100 Calorie pudding flavor.... Creme Brulee Rice Pudding and it is DELICIOUS. Seriously, this pudding tastes exactly like creme brulee. So if you like the delicious creaminess of creme brulee and the interesting texture of rice... this is your pudding.

Also, here are a couple photos of us.





I'm finally starting to feel like I weigh less.

Things I've noticed that have changed since I've lost weight.

- My skin looks amazing. It's actually glowy.
- My stylist told me that my hair was nice and healthy & actually I've noticed it hasn't been as dry ... coincidence?
- I hardly ever have gas anymore, unless I slip and eat something bad.
- I don't poop as much (sorry, I'm trying to be as honest as possible)
- My mood is a lot better
- I can feel the difference when I eat something bad
- I know when I am full
- I lose pockets of fat- currently my arms & butt are shrinking.

The Pudding Diet.

I'm going to start a new diet like Jared from Subway. It's called the Pudding diet... you eat pudding every single day and lose weight. Justin & I have discussed how fat free/sugar free pudding has been a very large factor in our weight loss. Not only does pudding taste delicious, but it is only 1 or 2 weight watcher points, depending on the pudding. Now, I'm not saying you should just go eat pudding for every meal. But, if you eat healthy foods all day, a cup of pudding really makes you feel like you've had a tasty treat and it keeps you sane. Recently I've been buying the fat free devils food pudding and eating it with strawberries and light whipped cream... this is fantastic & yummy. I recommend it highly.

So far I've lost 25 pounds.

so...

It's happening. Slowly. I've lost 23 pounds total, which sounds pretty good to me. I need to add some excercise to my diet and I should be able to reach my June goal of 40 pounds. Justin's doing better then me still, but I've convinced myself it's just because he is a man and that he doesn't have the "derolf" metabolism that I am cursed with. as my grandma says, "we're all fat".

I found my dress though and it looks good on me even though I am fat, so that makes me happy.

A BUMP in the road.

Today was the first time I've tried on wedding dresses. It was the most depressing experience of my life. Not only did I not really find anything I liked, everything looked terrible on me. I felt like a ridiculous fat bride and that my bridemaids and my guests are all going to look much more beautiful then I will on my wedding day. It's very discouraging.

Justin lost 4 more pounds... I gained a pound. He also ate 2 hot dogs and french fries on Saturday. This isn't fucking fair. I should just give up. I'm going to just be fat forever, aren't I?

conflict...

It's not hard to eat healthy anymore. I'm past the point where I feel like I am denying myself. I feel like I'm not doing enough. I had a set back this week. I was on my period. Not only was I crabby, but incredibly bloated. The scale told me I didn't lose anything this week. I did really well too. I'm hoping this week goes a lot better and I don't give this up. This is very important to me.

I haven't allowed myself to buy any new clothing until I get down to my June goal- 40 pounds. Since, I've been dreaming of clothing. My ultimate dream is to be able to shop at Anthropologie. I want to own a dress from Anthropologie. Being able to wear a dress from there for my shower would be the ultimate dream come true.


(Anthropologie dress)

It's very hard to love fashion and be fat. I have tons of skinny friends that can wear whatever they want, and they buy boring clothing. I'm so jealous!

Inspiration.

Today is bad because I am in the midst of my monthly woman duty & I feel incredibly bloated.

I haven't bought a new bathing suit since I was in 8th grade. Yes, I have owned and swam in the same bathing suit since I was 14. Can you believe that's almost 10 years? In fact, it's a black bathing suit with white polka dots, a little skirt & a nice giant hole in it's gauzy lining. It's hot. I even got it from walmart. The fact is, I haven't felt the need to buy a bathing suit in nearly 10 years because I don't swim.... not in front of other people that is.

I'm losing weight for myself- so that I can swim this summer.

I want this bathing suit because it's hot & funky.