194.

I lost a couple more pounds. The scale is still not moving as much as I'd like it to. It's not reflecting how hard I am working. I am working much harder then the first time I lost weight & it's a lot harder to lose. I took this photo in a fitting room to send to my sister & ask for her opinion on whether or not I should buy it. I think I look like I've lost weight in this photo. I think that I must be losing inches and not pounds. I'm just going to keep trying & not give up. On Tuesday I am going to the Y to meet up w/ someone who works there. She is going to set me up on her workout plan & give me a little advice on what I should be doing. I hope that helps. I think that I need to add more strength training to my workout because I have 0% muscle mass. I read that women do not burn as many calories as men because they have less muscle mass. I wish it were as easy to lose weight as it is to gain it!

1 POUND!

It's pretty sad that I am this excited about 1 pound but the scale hasn't budged in forever. I am also smack dab in the middle of my period so I'm hoping that when I'm done, my body will drop a little more. I've successfully worked out everyday this week so far. I just hope I start seeing some more results.

Discouraged.

I have literally been 198 for 2, maybe 3 weeks now. I'm not sure what else I should be doing. I eat about 900 calories every single day & I work out for 20-40 minutes daily w/ cardio & sometimes w/ 5 pound weights. I have no idea what to do! Last time I was trying, the weight was just falling off. Maybe my body just needs to get used to this. I'm going to give it more time. I'm just not sure what else I could possibly do. Work out for 2 hours everyday? That would kill me!

Scale Hate!

I have been doing this for a month and the scale isn't budging much! It's weird cause I FEEL like I've lost weight. My clothes fit a million times better and I just feel more energetic. I have no idea why the scale isn't reflecting this. I'm hoping for a difference next week. I worked out almost every day this week & ate 900 calories and under. W/ working out that means I only ate about 500-600 calories a day. This weight has to drop a little! My realistic goal is 175 by my birthday on April 16th. That is 23 pounds. I think I can accomplish that. That's 78 days away. That is about a half a pound a week. I hope I can do that!

Yogurt & Babies

OK yogurt. I have a love/hate relationship with you. Some days you taste good but most of the time I have to choke you down. Today I mixed sugar free chocolate pudding with my yogurt. The thing is, my body absolutely DEMANDS that I eat yogurt on a regular basis. I got a yeast infection this week. I would say that is probably the 6th+ vaginal infection I have gotten over the last year. I even take femdopholus which is a higher strain of probiotic bacteria. That's how much my vagina hates me. My guess is that it is a reaction to the enormous amount of sugar I ate over the holidays. I literally just had way too much sugar.

In other news, I met with a midwife today to have a pap smear and a preconception consultation. I just want to make sure I am doing everything I need to be doing to prep my body for a baby. I've been doing a lot of research on doctors in the area & asking other moms who they went to (which is where being a photographer of little kids is kinda helpful). I decided on a group of midwives in Oak Park that have alternative birthing rooms at a hospital. They are overseen by a doctor while in the hospital, but you see them through out our pregnancy and labor. My plan is to have a completely drug free delivery. I do not want to be hooked up to a zillion things & I want to bring my baby into the world while being able to actually feel the delivery (no numb legs please!). I know that you can never fully plan a pregnancy & that there are bound to be surprises, but as of right now I feel pretty positive about where things are.

I'm losing weight though, so that's positive. I'm not sure exactly how much I am down but I am finally under 200 again, so that's good. My goal is 150!

Steaks!

Tonight's dinner was tasty. It was as follows.

Salad w/ tomatoes
Sweet potatoes- baked w/ various toppings (Can't believe it's not butter, cinnamon & sugar free maple syrup)
Top Sirloin Steak
Horseradish, mushrooms & onions

Soooo good. I was surprised that all of us only ate half of our steaks. It's amazing what only 2 weeks of dieting does to your stomach.

Alex & I worked out this morning. Warm up, CardioMax level 2 & cool down. After dinner, Ben & Justin worked out. Then we all had a dessert. Mine was my trusty mug of almond milk hot chocolate sweetened w/ truvia.

We're doing good.

Livestrong!

I love Livestrong!

It makes me so happy when every single one of my days for the last 2 weeks has looked like this.



Here's an example of what I eat. Notice there's no breakfast. I woke up late because I worked really late, so I skipped that. I always allow myself a treat in the evening. It seems to be the ONLY thing that helps. I also do not include the cream I put in my coffee cause I will always allow fat free half & half and as many truvia packets as I need. I also only have one cup in the morning & then drink water for the rest of the day. If I'm wanting to munch on something really late into the night I drink caffeine free tea. It keeps my mouth busy. haha

I had a lot more carbs today then I usually do but I wanted to allow myself some so I wouldn't freak out.

Tonight's treat was a pudding cup w/ 1/2 a cup of fiber one cereal and 1/2 a banana. So tasty! I didn't include the pudding on my livestrong log because the total of calories for my Panera soup is actually incorrect on livestrong... it's 60 calories less on Panera's website.