Scale Hate!

I have been doing this for a month and the scale isn't budging much! It's weird cause I FEEL like I've lost weight. My clothes fit a million times better and I just feel more energetic. I have no idea why the scale isn't reflecting this. I'm hoping for a difference next week. I worked out almost every day this week & ate 900 calories and under. W/ working out that means I only ate about 500-600 calories a day. This weight has to drop a little! My realistic goal is 175 by my birthday on April 16th. That is 23 pounds. I think I can accomplish that. That's 78 days away. That is about a half a pound a week. I hope I can do that!

Yogurt & Babies

OK yogurt. I have a love/hate relationship with you. Some days you taste good but most of the time I have to choke you down. Today I mixed sugar free chocolate pudding with my yogurt. The thing is, my body absolutely DEMANDS that I eat yogurt on a regular basis. I got a yeast infection this week. I would say that is probably the 6th+ vaginal infection I have gotten over the last year. I even take femdopholus which is a higher strain of probiotic bacteria. That's how much my vagina hates me. My guess is that it is a reaction to the enormous amount of sugar I ate over the holidays. I literally just had way too much sugar.

In other news, I met with a midwife today to have a pap smear and a preconception consultation. I just want to make sure I am doing everything I need to be doing to prep my body for a baby. I've been doing a lot of research on doctors in the area & asking other moms who they went to (which is where being a photographer of little kids is kinda helpful). I decided on a group of midwives in Oak Park that have alternative birthing rooms at a hospital. They are overseen by a doctor while in the hospital, but you see them through out our pregnancy and labor. My plan is to have a completely drug free delivery. I do not want to be hooked up to a zillion things & I want to bring my baby into the world while being able to actually feel the delivery (no numb legs please!). I know that you can never fully plan a pregnancy & that there are bound to be surprises, but as of right now I feel pretty positive about where things are.

I'm losing weight though, so that's positive. I'm not sure exactly how much I am down but I am finally under 200 again, so that's good. My goal is 150!

Steaks!

Tonight's dinner was tasty. It was as follows.

Salad w/ tomatoes
Sweet potatoes- baked w/ various toppings (Can't believe it's not butter, cinnamon & sugar free maple syrup)
Top Sirloin Steak
Horseradish, mushrooms & onions

Soooo good. I was surprised that all of us only ate half of our steaks. It's amazing what only 2 weeks of dieting does to your stomach.

Alex & I worked out this morning. Warm up, CardioMax level 2 & cool down. After dinner, Ben & Justin worked out. Then we all had a dessert. Mine was my trusty mug of almond milk hot chocolate sweetened w/ truvia.

We're doing good.

Livestrong!

I love Livestrong!

It makes me so happy when every single one of my days for the last 2 weeks has looked like this.



Here's an example of what I eat. Notice there's no breakfast. I woke up late because I worked really late, so I skipped that. I always allow myself a treat in the evening. It seems to be the ONLY thing that helps. I also do not include the cream I put in my coffee cause I will always allow fat free half & half and as many truvia packets as I need. I also only have one cup in the morning & then drink water for the rest of the day. If I'm wanting to munch on something really late into the night I drink caffeine free tea. It keeps my mouth busy. haha

I had a lot more carbs today then I usually do but I wanted to allow myself some so I wouldn't freak out.

Tonight's treat was a pudding cup w/ 1/2 a cup of fiber one cereal and 1/2 a banana. So tasty! I didn't include the pudding on my livestrong log because the total of calories for my Panera soup is actually incorrect on livestrong... it's 60 calories less on Panera's website.

My Savior.

Hot Chocolate

1 Cup unsweetened Almond Milk
1 TBL. unsweetened cocoa powder
2 Truvia packets
a dash of extract (vanilla, almond or coconut)

55 glooooorious and life saving calories. :-)

Back... again!

OK, enough of this. It's time I lose the last 50 pounds to reach my goal of 150 pounds. I have many motivating factors behind this.

- I'm going to Costa Rica in June to visit my friend who has been living there for almost 3 years now. I haven't gone to visit her yet because I refuse to wear a bathing suit in public.

- I've wanted a half sleeve tattoo for the longest time but I refuse to get a tattoo on my fat arms. I've already even talked to my tattoo artist and everything. Time to get this going.

- I want to have a baby. I know I'm at a better weight right now then I was at 300 pounds to conceive a child, but I am still at high risk. I would like to have a child before I am 30 but in order to do that I need to lose these last 50 pounds.

So far our entire house is doing so well. My brother in law Ben & friend Alex are getting married in the fall of 2012. They both want to lose weight so as an entire house we've decided to do it together (we all live together in 1 big house). It's been so great having double the amount of support I had the first time around. Everyday Alex & I work out together. We switch it up. We rotate between Jillian Michaels, Biggest Loser, Pilates, Yoga & Jackie Warner. On days I am in Indiana doing laundry or visiting, I jog on the treadmill for a mile. We all track our calorie intake on livestrong.com & consult each other about what we ate during the day & work together to make our dinners healthy. It's kind of amazing to live with a giant support team. We've all lost weight already. I refuse to get on the scale until February 1st because I don't want to know how much I gained over Christmas. I let myself go a little more crazy then usual. 2010 was a bad year for me but I'm looking positively at what new adventures 2011 will bring.